NaNoWriMo: Day 26

So... yeah, I didn't do it. I had hoped to write 5000 words today, but I wrote about 4000 less than that. But I do have a valid excuse: I was out all day.

I woke up at 11 (I stayed up late last night), and read for a little bit, and then got a text from my friend telling me that a few of my friends were going downtown today. So I was all, "Yay, I want to go." And then I went, and didn't get home until 8.

But right when I got home, I sat down and wrote as much as I could while keeping my eyes open. I'm tired, and I want to sleep.

But, if I do not make plans tomorrow, rest assured that I will write those 4000 words I missed, plus more if I can manage. My real goal for tomorrow is 9000, but I don't know if I can handle that. Either way, I am winning NaNoWriMo this year.

There is no turning back after all this work.

Words written today: 944
Total word count: 31011
Recommended word count: 43333


UPDATE: You know what, no! I will not sleep until I get to 35000 tonight. That's my final word on that. So, I'm gonna go grab me some diet coke and get to work. Wish me luck!


UPDATE #2: I couldn't do it. I wrote another 250 words, but I am so drained. 

NaNoWriMo: Day 25

I wrote the 3000 words I was hoping to today! Hooray! I wrote some pretty sad stuff, and almost cried writing it. What a baby I am! But yeah, I wrote what I wanted and feel good about it.

I wanted to write one or two thousand more words once I hit 3000, but didn't. I probably should have, but I felt like rewarding myself after a day of hard work. And so I did!

I was hoping to write 10000 words over tomorrow and Sunday, but I have plans for both days, so I don't know if that will happen. It would be great if it did, though.

Words written today: 3348
Total word count: 30067
Recommended word count: 41666

NaNoWriMo: Day 24

I did it, I did it, I did it, yay! I wrote over 2000 words today, so you don't get to punish me... yet. But tomorrow, if I don't write 3000 words, you can punish me again.

I'm trying to get really serious about this, because there is only six more days of writing, and I am way behind. I need to get my butt into gear, and work hard. I have tomorrow to myself, and I intend to use it to my advantage.

Words written today: 2018
Total word count: 26719
Recommended word count: 40000

NaNoWriMo: Day 23

Long story short, I had another wordless day. Here's the thing: right after school, I went shopping, and didn't get home for a few hours. I had stuff to do to get ready for Thansgiving, and I just finished that. I would stay up to write, but I took cough medicine and it is knocking me out. I'm finding it hard to stay awake just writing this.

I'm not that busy tomorrow. Thanksgiving with my family is being held at my house, and people will only be over for a few hours. I WILL WRITE tomorrow. At least 2000 words. If I don't, I'll let you guys choose a punishment I have to do and record.

Words written today: 0
Total word count: 24701
Recommended word count: 38333

NaNoWriMo: Day 22

So today I stayed after school for play practice, and then I had a choir concert. It didn't end until, like, five minutes ago, so I clearly didn't have time to write anything today. Bummer, right.

But thanks to a pep talk I got yesterday in the comments of my Day 21 post, I have decided not to give up. Tomorrow is a half day, and I am going to try my hardest to catch up with NaNoWriMo. I want to win this year, I really do. And I will try, I really will.

Words written today: 0
Total word count: 24701
Recommended word count: 35000

NaNoWriMo: Day 21

So at this rate, it doesn't look like I will be winning NaNoWriMo this year, which is a total bummer. I wish they would have a month-long break from school in November, so I could spend a few hours and write the right amount of words. I just... haven't been into it lately.

I lost momentum, which was my problem. Last year, I just went at it and didn't look back. Now, I'm trying to write something decent that I can actually work with. But I just can't get in the mood to write it. I'll sit down and get ready to write, then find a million other things to do on the internet before doing it. I don't even do productive things, just random stuff so I don't have to write. It's annoying. I'm annoyed with myself.

Is this what writer's block is? I hope not, because that sounds annoying. I seem like I'm in a bad mood, don't I? I don't know why... maybe because I'm tired. But that doesn't make much sense, because I got, like, nine hours of sleep last night. Hmm, who knows.

I'm thinking of crazy ideas for this NaNo book, and I can't wait to write them, really. But I just... I don't know. I like the story I'm writing with, but I'm worried that once I look it over I'll be terrified to do anything with it, because I will think it's crap. I don't know why I have this fear, since I am a pretty professional-ish book reviewer, and even do editing work for the publishers I intern for.

I'm clearly a mess.

Words written today: 690
Total word count: 24701
Recommended word count: 35000

NaNoWriMo: Day 20

I actually did write today, even though I didn't think I would. I had only a few hours to write, and was only able to write a few hundred words today. But it's... I don't know. I don't want to say it's okay, but I don''t really feel bad about it.

The thing is, I don't want to have to spend all of my free time writing. I want it to be something I can do, and dedicate time to, but not the thing that dominates everything else in my life. At least for now. I have so many things I do every single day, and writing can't just be... it.

Should I feel this way? Am I not a real writer because I don't want to write every second of my free time? I feel like I'm wrong, that I'm doing it all wrong. I don't know.

Words written today: 387
Total word count: 24011
Recommended word count: 33333